Afternoon. It was a fair day, clouds tufty, comfortably veiling the sun.
We were sitting by the stairs in Faura AVR, beside IBM room. It was just the two of us, casually chatting about this world.
Then suddenly the world changed. We were sharing the usual comfortable silence, then out of the blue I hugged her, whispered to her “I love you”. I was surprised that it was only happening in my head, but acted it out otherwise.
She interjected quickly “what?”
My heart was suddenly gripped with fear. Years of friendship was facing it’s death.
“I didn’t say anything” came out from my trembling mouth.
“Hindi nga, ano nga yun?” she said, with a gentle smile.
“I mean, I love you, but you know as… as friends” I said shakily, smiling apologetically.
She looked at me, still smiling at me.
“Okay, I love you, and I just can’t contain it.”
Then the scene changes.
It was a dark misty monsoon night. We were walking together, hands intertwined.
“Alam mo, bagay tayo” She laughingly smiled at me.
“What? Hindi kaya. Magagago mga tao sa akin” I laughed back.
“– her name here– Aro seems to be nice” She sweetly whispered.
The air, stingily cold, was warmed by my arms around her.
The films flicker.
We were separated in a labyrinth of streets of Hong Kong. I intended to surprise her with a gift while she shopped, but it backfired.
She messaged me “where are you?”
I felt the fear in her, but also the annoyance to my reckless abandon.
I ran and ran. My legs are numbing with tire. The scenery that surrounds me fade into blur. The neon lights hurt my eyes.
Then I saw her, standing out in an unfamiliar charter like a lost child. I rushed to her and hugged her tightly, reassuring that I won’t lose her again.
Angry tears flowed from her eyes. She shouted at me.
“Bakit ka kasi umaalis agad?” She sobbed.
I showed her a brilliant locket of white gold and diamonds. It has our picture in it. I put it on her, hands careful and tender.
I kissed her in the forehead.
“I’m sorry for leaving you without notice. I won’t lose you again”
Then I fucking woke up.